01.25.02 » over 100 books, over 100 cassette tapes, over 300 cds... and one bookshelf. this is what i'm dealing with. DON'T YOU THINK IT'S TIME I GOT ANOTHER ONE? yea, that's all i asked for for my birthday... a bookshelf, but it needs to come NOW because i cannot function anymore with this stuff scattered all over my room! help me.
01.25.02 » on the subject of ludacris. biggie50187: i saw someof the that video 01.24.02 » what is my life coming to. every night i spend forever sitting here at my computer talking to biggie about nothing and to mahrk about my bean/bug buddy icon. someone shoot me. i love them dearly, yes, but now it is time for seinfeld and no one will let me get offline... 01.24.02 » ANDREW. NEVER. CHANGES. HIS. CLOTHES. i see a flash of red coming and for the briefest second i think it must be him but couldn't be... then i re-look and more often than not it IS him. with the motherfucking cigarette and black ski cap and pretty eyes and blah blah blah. red red red RED RED RED RED. just stop it. get away from me. 01.23.02 » went to barnes and noble tonight to spend my christmas gift certificates. i bought wuthering heights because it was such a marvelous book i felt i needed to own it, and cutting by steven levenkron, which i've been wanting for years. on the way home, there were cops and an ambulance outside of alana's house...? anyway, today i counted my clothes, because this is what boredom reduced me to. but only the stuff that wasn't in the laundry, and i didn't count socks and underwear. so in case you were wondering, i currently have... 6 pairs of jeans, 22 pairs of pants, 136 long sleeve shirts/sweatshirts/sweaters, 74 short sleeve shirts/tee-shirts, 63 sleeveless shirts/halters, 21 long skirts, 7 short skirts, 29 dresses, 12 pairs of shorts, and 2 vests... that are not in the laundry. it's disgusting and i should just sell it all. it's 10:16, i hope everybody is preparing to watch ludacris ("the ugliest man in the world") on tv in fourteen minutes. 01.23.02 » rollout was just on at 11:00 and it was exciting as always. anyway, i updated my mp3 collection, cause it got neglected in the process of recovering from the virus. i moved the random facts to a pop-up window, because it was getting too long. now i must go meet lydia for lunch. 01.22.02 » ludacris is also going to be on Celebrity Dismissed this saturday night. 01.22.02 » so i sat down for five minutes and i was watching fat babies on Jenny Jones. all of the sudden i had this feeling that i could be missing ludacris. i made a mad dash for the remote, frantically flipped on mtv, and THERE HE WAS! oh yes, rollout was on. it's completely stupid cause every time i watch that video, i sit there with a big stupid smile across my face, but i'm not even kidding while i'm doing it. i'm sitting there all alone grinning at ludacris... especially the git outta mah biz-nazz part. tomorrow night he's on a diary. yes a whole half hour of ludie. :::faints::: 01.21.02 » oh yea, i made a new layout for my diary. please tell me what you think, because i'm not sure if i like it yet. 01.21.02 » getting back to the subject of my buddy icon: i hate everything. i recorded brit's new cd tonight and it's fabulous as usual, even though she's a freak. 01.21.02 » yes He actually has another set of clothes! today He was sportin BLACK shoes, KHAKI pants, DARK grey sweatshirt. same ski hat, same bag. i updated this crap. 01.20.02 » Mahrk: nice bug 01.20.02 » i just watched the same show on vh1 that i watched last night, to see ludacris again. fucking pathetic. and i want to marry alice cooper.not really. shut up. this is retarded and nobody reads it. 01.20.02 » i forgot to mention that i am no longer taking any of those stupid online tests, because there's just too many. i made a list of urls for the ones i've found recently and been meaning to take, and it's up to like fifteen of them. i'm just not going to bother because it wastes a lot of time, and i never even give a rat's ass about my results. so it's all done, and i might end up deleting all the results i currently have posted. i'm sure nobody reads them and there's no point in having them there. i will leave you with these, the only ones i half-ass cared about. 01.19.02 » renee says there is another girl who likes ludacris. i knew i couldn't be the only one cause... he's hot. and biggie is going to kill gangsta chris if i pay him one dollar. NICE. 01.19.02 » well, i would advise everyone to go read my latest journal entry, because... well because you should hate him just as much as me. i have not been so motherfucking infuriated with anybody in a long time. maybe god strike down christopher with a hot and PAINFUL bolt of lightening. 01.19.02 » biggie (big motherfuckin e, if you prefer) is officially the most hilarious person that ever existed. this boy tells the most random stories ever. anyway, so here is my webpage. i added a link to my ruin's lyrics i said i would, that's in this section. i updated my livejournal yesterday, so you should be excited. does anyone even know i have a livejournal? well i do, but i don't use it. i've decided i will not password protect my diary, but i don't think i ever said i was considering it in the first place. hm. sign me. i saw ryan clark last night, and it was exciting. i'm glad i don't see people from sutton around very much. really glad. why is nixon's name always on my buddy list? can't he just get the fuck offline and out of my life (no i cannot delete it) 01.16.02 » oh yea, i decided i'm going to add a section with all of my ruin's lyrics, because they're some of the best (and as aforementioned, tairrie is a godess, etc). coming soon. 01.16.02 » the new layout is up, as you can see. a few days turned out to be many hours, but that's okay. another tairrie b layout, simply because she is a goddess. i added a few more things and may still be adding some sections. i do still need to fix all the clique/ring/fanlisting graphics, but i'll do that within the next day or two. sign my guestbook, and email me if you find something i need to fix. i do know there are still things to be done, but i figured people were sick of seeing my "the site is down" message. voila. 01.14.02 » not only did the virus wipe out the majority of my graphics, but it damaged most of my webpage stuff. i have over 5000 infected files on my computer, and the program only lets me delete ONE at a time! so, i'm working on that now. but i have noticed that a lot of my graphics are slowly disappearing... like the cliques/rings/fanlisting graphics. i am aware of it and i do have plans to fix it, but i'm fixing my hard drive first. so deal with it for now. 01.13.02 » and now for some fabulous fucking news. the loveletter virus wiped out a good amount of my mp3s, jpg images, and webpage information. that is, five years worth of saved junk that was SAVED for a reason. i will now proceed to spend the majority of the afternoon replacing my files. sign my guestbook and make me feel loved. 01.12.02 » don't know when i'll get a chance to upload changes and make a new layout, because the computer has a fucking VIRUS. love letter. josh is trying to fix it as we speak (i'm on a different computer now), so hopefully all will be well soon. 01.11.02 » i'm really sorry to anyone who has tried to come and has gotten a "forbidden" message. josh claims it will be fixed soon, but i have no idea what's going on. in the mean time, you can use http://sadgirl.cjb.net, but you probably knew that if you got to this point and are able to read this. fucking dot.nu, or whatever is messed up, can kiss my ass. 01.11.02 » i think i have chronic IHATEMYLAYOUT syndrome. i want to change it again, but i don't exactly have time... errr. i'm adding a link to rob's page, because as always, he is still writing wonderful poetry. 01.09.02 » i simply love this girl, and emails like this thrill me to the bone... hey, whats up? Are you having a fun vacation---i havent seen you in sooooo long-- [...] i found a cover to one of those stupid english books we had to read and when i opened it i found that poem you wrote me for my birthday---oh my god there was a laughing fit----it so described my life perfectly---and it ryhmed too! You are so AWSOME----I miss government and calc so much---those classes were so fun--- i think i learned more about your chapstick than i did any government crap. But it was so fun. ...hope to see you soon <3 you lots----- 01.08.02 » more mp3s as usual, the weezer test (i'm brian bell), and i added the random fact that i have over 150 pictures of ludacris now saved on my hard drive. but that's nothing, since i have over 500 silverchair ones. oh, and new desktop image that is sexy as fuck. 01.07.02 » new evidence points to the fact that ludacris is indeed meant for laurahn. a. the fact that he "motherfucker" is every other word in his language; b. the fact that his new video "shows Ludacris partyin' in a tree house, chickens gettin' their freak on, and a big smiling dog"; c. his real name is chris, and we all know i fall for (assholes) people named chris; d. he says things like "What makes me angry is when I'm eating food and fans come up to me and ask for autographs you know what I'm sayin', just let me finish eating - that's all I ask please, I love y'all the death, but let me finish eeeaaaattttiiinnggg!" e; sometimes he is so fucking hot, and other times he looks like this. check out my pretty desktop of the moment. 01.07.02 » new layout coming! i am going to keep the color scheme and all that.. just new images. i already know who's going to be featured, but the layout is not complete. so check back later dearies, cause it's coming soon! 01.07.02 » i. just. watched. OVER TWO HOURS. of the video music awards. on mtv. WAITING. TO. SEE. LUDACRIS. but then he was on for a minute, during missy elliot's performance (figures). yea.. woo. 01.07.02 » i realized that i don't spend nearly as much time on my computer as i thought i did. i decided to blog because i feel like i'm always updating things, and i am.. but not things big enough to write about. yesterday i added the fact that i want to fuck a rockstar to the list of things i want to do before i die. i did update a lot of other things to though. little things throughout the site, so you will just have to go find them. 01.04.02 » ok darlings, i have finally developed an obsession that even i can't understand. most people could understand tori amos because she's divine. they understand daniel johns because he's beautiful. and brian molko, because he has that whole girly-boy thing going on. and marilyn manson... well i know that my obsession has nothing to do with his attractiveness, since it is quite lacking, so that doesn't confuse me. but now i want ludacris, and i'm not even kidding. i was at first, since he says things like "stay da fuck up outta mah biznazz", but then i started noticing he's on tv every 3 seconds, and now i like him. he's not even attractive. but oh yes, i want him. 01.04.02 » inspired by the fact that i still smell like marijuana everywhere, i will now hide away in this room all afternoon and fix all the little things wrong with the page. bah. visit my aol page - it's sweet. 01.01.02 » more tests, more mp3s, and more lipgloss. 01.01.02 » new year, new layout. please let me know what you think? 12.31.01 » yea... this hideous clashing will stop soon... it goes with the new layout. 12.31.01 » the guestbook looks horrible right now, but you can still sign it. also, that mp3 page i linked in the previous entry isn't uploaded yet.. it will be.. i just don't feel like dealing with this right now, sorry. 12.31.01 » well it's about time. i finally downloaded morpheus, so you might as well just check my mp3 list daily, because i'm sure i'll be downloading 24/7. let's see.. i added a link to gemma's page, because it's marvelous. the new layout is basically done, and i'm considering uploading the entire thing today or tomorrow. so if you come back later and the guestbook/weblog clashes hideously, it's because i've already changed them to match the new layout. that's all. i'm actually sort of looking forward to tonight, and r e l a x i n g. 12.30.01 » the layout will probably be up sooner than i thought. i've had a horrible stomach ache all weekend, so when i wasn't at work, i spent a lot of time on the page. i did go to borders tonight (i should just move in.. i'm there daily), but came home early and worked on it some more. i don't even know if i like it yet. "i'm andy knight and i fucked your mom" 12.29.01 » i've got the new layout started, and i am thoroughly loving it, but this time i'm not going to sneak the address out to random people to preview it. i still need time though. it probably won't be up until some time in the week. 12.29.01 » i'm not doing anything tonight (i really do love saturday nights at home.. sick), so i'm working on the new layout. i'm not sure yet when i'll have it up, but know that it's coming. 12.29.01 » wrote another crappy poem. added a complete list of the screen names i've had, took more tests, updated my wishlist. lots of mp3s. 12.27.01 » as soon as i get all of my files transfered onto my computer, i am making the new layout and will have it up as soon as possible. more visuals are coming soon! i have them on my computer, but haven't added them to the page yet. i <3 josh. 12.27.01 » okay. added another album to my tori amos collection page and updated my mp3 list. took more tests. this has been my favorite layout so far, but i've decided i need to change it because it's too much like every other angsty girl's. i love tairrie, but she seems to be the poster girl for all the little "goth" girls, and once again, i am not "goth". so, i'm thinking the new layout will feature juliet capulet. i don't know yet. i have plenty of time to make it though. i love winter break. oh - i also added more mp3s. 12.26.01 » it seems to be the thing that everyone and their mother is doing, so now i'll tell you what i got for christmas. so far, but it's not over. 12.24.01 » There are many things you can point to as proof that the human is not smart. But my personal favorite would have to be that we needed to invent the helmet. What was happening, apparently, was that we were involved in a lot of activities that were cracking our heads. We chose not to avoid doing these activities but, instead, to come up with some sort of device to help us continue enjoying our head-cracking lifestyles. The helmet. And even that didn't work because not enough people were wearing them so we had to come up with the helmet law. Which is even stupider, the idea behind the helmet law being to preserve a brain whose judgement is so poor, it does not even try to stop the cracking of the head it's in. -jerry seinfeld 12.24.01 » sorry, i've been busy lately, i guess because it's christmas. now i'm just waiting for joshua to call so that we can go to ihop for blueberry pancakes <3. i don't have much to say really. i took some more tests and added them to the analyzed page. i am thinking of making a new layout using this picture, but i'm not quite sure i have time to re-do everything right now. i know i'm on winter break, but i still have plans. plus i really love this layout and i want to keep it a little while longer. 12.21.01 » josh wants me to make sure i point out somewhere on my webpage that i have two different ways of wanting guys. sometimes i just want to take them home and keep them in a jar in my room so that i can look at them. other times, i want to jump on them right then and there. so saying i "want" someone really means nothing unless i specify. hotness does not necessarily imply wantability, but wantability almost always implies hotness. okay? 12.21.01 » okay, added a link to the faerie veil. check out the galleries, they're beautiful. also scary squirrel world because i <3 squirrels. that's all, i meant to add them last night but i forgot. 12.20.01 » if it makes any difference, i think the only think i did today was add a link to kitty's page. visit her, because she admits to making her barbies have sex. i don't know why people deny it, it's all my barbies ever did... actually, they also ended up in court getting divorced a lot. anyway, i'm going to the high school talent show with renee and lydia tomorrow, and i'm pretty scared. i don't want to see any of those motherfuckers... i just want to see them get on stage and humiliate themselves. 12.20.01 » hope you're all excited, even if I have nothing to say. i constantly update this page, so now you'll know what i'm updating. today i took some more tests. i'll fix this later, now i'm going to josh's to watch trainspotting. 12.20.01 » i joined the masses; i have a blog.
biggie50187: wit the big head
xdansgerlx: yea well his head isn't really that big obvoiusly
biggie50187: o really
biggie50187: i thought he was deformed
xdansgerlx: yea kinda, probably
biggie50187: do u enjoy deformities
xdansgerlx: seinfeld
xdansgerlx: are you seeing it?
biggie50187: u should chill for a while and ill tel u about it
xdansgerlx: yea i could do that, or i could go watch it eh?
biggie50187: il tell u about it
biggie50187: george is talkin
xdansgerlx: lol
biggie50187: kramer now
this is what i have to deal with.
biggie50187: it looks like a piece of shit
xdansgerlx: YOU LOOK LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT
biggie50187: its a dancing piece of shit
biggie50187: ha ha ha ha ah
lauren: NO IT'S A BEAN
lauren: and it's running
Mahrk: i know
lauren: and you love it
Mahrk: its cute ill give u that
i am luathas the wild. hate. impulsiveness. fire. spontaneity. you are wild with fire, fire associated with a creative life force. "faster!" you say. you are filled with fury as well as rampid creativity. fire burns as well as energizes. you have a "go for it" attitude. you like to take chances but often forget to stay grounded.
i am boys for pele era tori. when scorned, you are like a woman on the war path who takes no prisoners! but instead of violence, you vent your anger and hurt through beautifully crypted creativity that will have everybody talking and singing your praises. from your network of friends and/or hot love affairs, you gain strength and you always come out on top as a more mature person. (somehow i knew i would get this before i even took the test)
you are mrs. skinner. "children are so fat today. isn't there some way we can make money off that?"
ludacris was on vh1 last night for like 15 seconds, talking about mc hammer. it was spectactular and i want him.
remember, i update my livejournal now, and today's entry is rather profound.
i went to see my old dance studio's ballet this afternoon. lots of new people and children, so they didn't really know me. but i wanted to scream at all of them DON'T YOU KNOW I DANCED HERE FOR FOURTEEN YEARS? because of course, they didn't know. oh well, i video-taped the first performance, and i think a lot of people were sort of surprised when they got on stage and there i was right on the floor in front of the stage. anyway, i saw kara, jen, jen, ashley. i miss jen now that she's not coming back to michaels... which brings me to the fact that i'm most likely giving my two-week notice tomorrow. no backup plan, sorry mom, but i can't fucking stay there another day. and as it is, i'll have two weeks. so. you can see the point i suppose. please sign my guestbook and tell me i have every right in the world to hate christopher, even if you have no idea why i hate him... i am expelling him from my system, he's like fucking poison, only not half as interesting.
and now i am finished ludacris-ing. i changed the layout so everybody can stop being scared.
my cat will not stop chewing on pieces of tinsel, so i have to follow her around pulling them out of her mouth.
i figured out why i like ludacris so much. see, i find myself watching all these hip hop shows on mtv now because i'm waiting for him to come. and in doing this, i have realized that if i want to want some rapper dude, there are a lot more attractive ones for me to pick. (ludacris = not hot). but i think that if i were a male, african american twenty-four years old, from atlanta, and a famous rapper... then i would be him. because he attempts to make frog noises on command (redman&method man's stung), he says things like "stay da fuck up outta my bizz-nazz", and does things like this. aside from the bling blinging and whatever else, i think he's hilarious and... um, ludicrous? i just think he's marvelous, sorry. another inexplicable phenomenom.
oh yea, finally uploaded all the tests, mp3s, and new visuals.
pink fishnet shirt; glass faerie (i collect); dream journal; mini stuffed duck; irridescent faerie wall hanging; stuffed kittie; $15 newbury comics gift certificate; $25 mall gift certificate; $20 barnes and noble gift certificate; joy for the journey (book); long skirt from wormtown trading; embroidered shirt from wormtown trading; faerie brooch; simpsons trivia game; old navy performance fleece; songs of a goddess: tori amos tribute album; electric toothbrush; facial brush; hot cocoa; watch with riveted band; $25 makeover gift certificate; $50 mall gift certificate; black turtleneck sweater; two black camisoles; clark university sweatshirt; stuffed duck that quacks xmas carols; homemade jewelry box; windchime; lipgloss; comfort candle; m&m's; five victoria's secret lotions; pink shirt; journal; photo album; address book; notepad; decorated tin bucket; $30 mall gift certificate...
people i saw in the mall today? chase, meredith, walters, zach, alicia, rose, ryan, steve, vinnie, kyle, brian, shelly and heather, james dustin, the dziel sisters, leeann, kristin, erin, lauren...