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05.30.03 ť ps yeah i'm gonna make a new layout very soon, like tomorrow. Very similar to this one but viewable in different resolutions. So everyone can be happy. 05.30.03 ť R.I.P. Mrs. Hendrickson of 'Hendrickson's Hero' fame. 05.30.03 ť my mom's friend is in the living room immensely enjoying the company of my mouse, and i am enjoying her happiness because everyone else in my family hates it. woo. and why does my mother act friggin retarded when she's with her friends. 05.30.03 ť (?????) 05.30.03 ť my ruin is working with chad michael ward on art for the upcoming album. so awesome. 05.30.03 ť i am so glad jessica posted about this- you should watch this show when it's on. I'm afraid to because it'll probably make me want to do it times a million, but.. I'll just make sure I'm not a lone. 05.28.03 ť it's Alexa from Riviera. And their lyrics & junk. 05.28.03 ť today i found a song that i've frequently gotten stuck in my head for years, but never knew what it was! i heard it in a MSCL episode once i think, and other places but that was all I could remember. But today I figured out the song is called "PRESSURE" and it's by SUNSCREEM. yah yah. But the mp3 won't download from kazaa (sources.. fuck all these needed sources), so if anyone has it and wants to send it to me, i'd love you forever! if that matters! 05.28.03 ť i am so lame, i love to be plugged, yo. 05.27.03 ť wow i totally forgot how much i FUCKING LOVE Kill Hannah (the band). commence obsessive listening. 05.27.03 ť WOW, that's both scary and awesome. 05.27.03 ť David LaChappelle's work is really interesting (keep clicking the > arrow). 05.27.03 ť ! to the PERSON who likes to tell people "marilyn manson is in all her dreams!" about me ... He was last night! Except I don't know what the hell was going on in my head... He moved into my basement and was designing this system so that he could have a warehouse and these machines which he could hang people from like they were being hung to die- but at the same time they'd have an IV pumping some drug into them that would keep them alive, so instead of dying they'd just constantly feel the pain of the hanging. so fucking terrible and creepy and why did i dream that!! 05.27.03 ť hi i love the lyrics to this song. 05.26.03 ť so beautiful 05.26.03 ť NEW MP3 05.25.03 ť i love finding bands that are so down with my sense of humor i feel like i know them. 05.24.03 ť here you go- download everything from here and you will be happy :D 05.24.03 ť woo i bought this book on a whim tonight! 05.24.03 ť gasp i'm getting sick of tori. No.. Just her fans. Maybe it's because I'm also a huge fan of Pepper McGowan and I'm sick of these little pricks constantly making Tori out to be God and everybody else to be a big poser. Tori is just another fucking human being making music, regardless of how obsessive I am, even I know that. If yr gonna start being so fucking accusatory about who's copying who, then maybe we should bring up some tori comparisons to Joni Mitchell or Carol King. If anything, Tori's entire style is a ripoff of what Joni did in Carey. But what the fuck ever. 05.24.03 ť and i still fucking hate you and haven't yet dealt with the fact that I was once said to LOOK LIKE THAT, even though it WAS many many years ago. 05.24.03 ť so i watched that show Grounded For Life the other night, because I used to watch it when it first came out (in love with the uncle) but then I hadn't seen it for well over a year at least. I was surprised because last time I saw it Jimmy was a little boy, but now he's all cool with froufy hair. At first I was excited about the hair and thinking hm he could be kinda hot when he grows up... Then in a scene he was wearing an Interpol teeshirt, and they even talked about it because he was like "Do you even know who my favorite band is?" and the parents said no and he said "look at my shirt" and the mom was like "That's a band?". And then there was an Alanis Morisette poster on the wall .. I couldn't see the other posters though. I enjoyed it all. Psht, it just makes me happy to see something halfway more normal than all the other zombie clone junk usually on tv. 05.24.03 ť i forgot to mention on may 21st that .. May 21st was always the date I wanted to get married. yeah. I think about it every single year. So dumb. 05.23.03 ť new livejournal layout. i don't know what's with all the X's.. they're probably kind of annoying. it started with a striped background, then i decided it needed something much more simple.. so X's it was. 05.21.03 ť updated the visuals page (click SEE in the menu) 05.21.03 ť according to humanforsale, i am worth exactly: $2,139,730.00. 05.20.03 ť Swifty is Prince rofl lmao waiting to take you to his lol castle up in the skye. 05.20.03 ť finally updated/fixed. 05.20.03 ť dude. shut up. Viva Voce. really good.. whatever you want to call them.. band (husband & wife they are). Have been listening to them a lot for a while. To me it sounds like.. I don't know.. a chorus or something.. And then I finally find their webpage and it's all "indie rock powerhouse" "a driving force in the indie scene for over 7 years" etc. shut it. shut shut shut. just music. 05.20.03 ť Happy is she who acquires a new egg crate, new sheets, new pillow, & hypoallergenic cover for it all in the same day. oh fabulous sleep. 05.20.03 ť Happy is she who acquires a new egg crate, new sheets, new pillow, & hypoallergenic cover for it all in the same day. oh fabulous sleep. 05.19.03 ť i'm already making a new layout for my website.. the current one looks too much like the old one? i guess? i don't know. i'm sick of everything, tired with it all. 05.18.03 ť um new LJ icons. 05.18.03 ť new layout finally done. i had saved this picture a long long time ago off tonystone and always wanted to use it in a layout, but never really knew what to do with it. so finally i decided to just stick it in there. simplicity. oh, and finally this weblog actually matches the layout. excuse my laziness last time. it's funny because the more html i do, the faster i do it.. this entire layout (image + diary + archive page + guestbook + weblog) only took me about an hour all together. Of course it's aided by the fact that it was similar to my previous layout.. okay whatever. I still have to update the archive now with the latest ones. 05.18.03 ť oh look i got another fabulous fucken message at faceparty: "imagine the pleasure you would feel as i lick your pussy for ages before taking my cock and fucking you over and over till you cum hard" SHUT. UP. 05.17.03 ť new mp3: Juliet by Emilie Autumn. I wasn't going to ever upload any Emilie Autumn songs, since you can download the entire "Enchant" album off her site, but i want everybody in the world to hear this song so I'll put it here for free, whereas you have to sign up for Emilie's mailing list if you download them from the site, which I know not everybody wants to do (oh, but I did.) It's a .wav file instead of .mp3 and i didn't feel like downloading another program to convert wavs to mp3s, so just deal with it.. it just means it's a larger file. this is my favorite song on the album.. i'm forever quoting it, have been listening to it for months.. even when i look back at my "now playing" on the bottom of my diary entries, it seems like i'm always listening to this song.. at least when it matters. Funny because I didn't really like it the first time I heard it. I thought it was interesting, but I didn't really understand.. But then it kept getting stuck in my head and then I paid attention to the fabulous strings (especially at the end), and that was the end of it all. So listen to it a few times. love it love it love it. Love Emilie Autumn in general. 05.17.03 ť i've known this for a long time, but i think i should probably publicly announce that i think Alice is literally one of the single most beautiful people i have ever seen. right? ps so cute. 05.17.03 ť "I am interested in expanding notions of what it is to be a political artist rather than playing into 'women-in-rock' stereotypes of feminist rage" -kathleen 05.17.03 ť oh. man. at memories of playing drums on our knees in the backseat of the car with this boy. soooo long ago and still so funny. 05.15.03 ť who made me do this & why & why didn't they tell me to brush my hair first? leon.. doing 05.15.03 ť this is a really good website for when you or anyone is suicidal. really good. 05.15.03 ť here's something i should probably tell people: that i did change my screen name (riotgrrlstyle), but i keep my options set so that only people on my buddy list can see me online & IM me. My old buddy list had around 200 people on it, and even then i hadn't added some new names... This new one? 21 names on it, only 13 different people. I'm perfectly happy with it, but i'm just making it clear that i do know I'm kinda stupid for putting my screen name on my webpage as if people will actually be able to access me. Oh well, I take the block off sometimes, every couple of days for a little while, so you can still look for me if you actually want or need to... 05.15.03 ť an email from lydia about the boy i've been obsessed with since junior high! (STILL AM. LOVE HIM. FOREVER AND EVER! :D ): word has it that a certain tim h***** is the town hottie amoung middle aged and elderly women. i guess some old lady had a meeting with him (don't know why) and claimed she would sell pies (she's having a bake sale for the sutton 300th) in exchange for sex with him......good god. and then tim came to vaillancourt's for a meeting with gary..and my mom saw him and was all amazed at how gorgeous he Was....whataodlfhasdgovsh03=1095143. NO..i mean...why did no one but you see this before? 05.15.03 ť tori is playing the fleet Boston Pavilion in Boston on 8/24 this summer..Who wants to go with me?! Ooh and only a couple of days after Ani.. fucking heaven. 05.15.03 ť possums.. 05.14.03 ť i forgot to mention yesterday that i am officially kindasorta in heaven with marilyn manson's new cd. 05.14.03 ť i forgot to mention yesterday that i am officially kindasorta in heaven with marilyn manson's new cd. 05.12.03 ť** one thing i'm still confused about is why people leave some of the shit they do in my guestbook. just because i write about my own little "problems" doesn't mean i want to hear the "problems" of the rest of the world. just because i major in psychology doesn't mean i want to be your therapist, doctor, or even friend. don't get me wrong. i love it when people sign my guestbook. i love it when people tell me things about themselves that i can relate to, when they are my friends or if they are strangers, they are trying to BETTER my situation by letting me know i'm not alone. what i DON'T like is "soandso is dead" (tonight) or "well I have anorexia" or "oh my god somebody touched me too, so here is my ENTIRE LIFE STORY, LET'S COMPARE". To whoever left the "i almost feel bad that your eyes are watering from allergies- mine are too, but try crying cause soandso died"... either 1. you don't even know me cause if you did you know i HAVE cried for plenty of deaths or 2. you're a friend and this person is someone i know, in which case you need to a. not say it accusingly (i dont have the right to complain about my allergies cause someone might die?) and b. TALK TO ME DIRECTLY AND NOT LEAVE IT IN THE FUCKING GUESTBOOK. 05.11.03 ť updated that little riotgrrl page thing on my diary.. more links. 05.11.03 ť aw. i miss him. But he's thinking he'll be home in July. Then stealing me and running away to new york. 05.10.03 ť plus.. 05.10.03 ť HAHAHAHAHAA at THIS ... And then follow that up with THIS. I will always be a huge maddox fan. always. 05.10.03 ť terami! fuck. i got a postcard in the mail about the shows, but the closest one was 21+, the others were all too far (PA). 05.10.03 ť so .. i'm leaving it up to everyone else to find my screen name .. it's 'riotgrrlstyle' . i'm not telling anybody individually so add if you want and talk to me if you need. i'm done with the old ones. 05.09.03 ť but speaking of her, it was one of her mixes that made me download Amanda Ghost's Cellophane and now i will never stop listening to it repeatedly i think. Absolutely too beautiful to handle, and it's JUST what i needed to hear at this time. Thus the reason it's the new mp3! But the old one - Manhole/Sickness is still up because I posted it in my tairrie b community, plus it's just a good song so you should still download it if you haven't already! and i try.. 05.09.03 ť aww #12 :) i <3<3<3 jess ica. you should too. 05.08.03 ť well i think i finally kinda finished the people list under the riotgrrlpagething. That entry started with just a few Bikini Kill articles, but has vastly expanded. Mainly because I thought that most people just knew about the whole "riot grrl"/ third wave feminism thing, even if they weren't into it or supporters, but then I found more and more people that had absolutely no idea whatsoever whenever I mentioned it. So. There you go, my own little page, which I'm sure I'll keep adding stuff to. I just don't want people to thinking I'm some big hairy man-hating dyke that only talks about feminism (not that it would be a bad thing, except the man-hating part), but I'm not. Oh well. And the reason it took so long to complete that list of people to look up if yr interested (not that I'm sure the list is finished) is that I looked up every single one of them and read their biographies and accomplishments etc. There were a few I looked up who I didn't think were important enough to put on the list..that sounds mean, but how long was this thing gonna be now.. So I tried to include women who have made significant changes, have radical views, are well-known as activists, were pioneers of some sort (billy tipton<3) or have done something like risen to the top of a male-dominated field (Billie Jean King, etc). Yes I spent a lot of time here researching and reading, but I must say I enjoyed it every bit. 05.08.03 ť new (well, actually kinda old, just new for USING) screen name on AIM. i have no plans to use the other ones, though i might jump on them now and then as always. add it or just don't talk to me anymore. 05.08.03 ť so i made a wishlist, with the full knowledge that i will probably never receive one single item off of it (until i buy it myself). but still. at least now i have one. i guess. 05.08.03 ť no the guestbook doesn't match yet 05.08.03 ť finally got around to changing the mp3.... Now Sickness by Manhole. The same song was later re-done as Relapse by Tura Satana with a few minor changes.. I think that's probably a better version, but I only have it as a .wav file on my computer, and I have this one in .mp3. They're pretty much the same anyway. And if you're wondering why I chose this mp3, just listen to the lyrics / read my latest private entry. fucking download it, i have listened to this song so much in the past year it's not even sane. 05.08.03 ť new layout.. i don't really know what's going on here.. 05.08.03 ť VISUALS PAGE UPDATED. 05.07.03 ť so we think we've found my new car.. it's purple.. but it's in the shop right now because someone keyed it while it was parked on the side of the street to be sold. worcester is so fucking cool. not. 05.07.03 ť oh but at least finally someone normal contacted me, and oh yeah IT WASN'T ABOUT SEX! 05.07.03 ť mrnashuanhusa guy on faceparty sent me ANOTHER message today.. about what he was supposedly doing last night while supposedly thinking about me.. Oh god, fucking gross.. Must..find..way..to..block... 05.06.03 ť Anyone want to tell me what's going on here? cause that's definitely my picture... 05.06.03 ť Anyone want to tell me what's going on here? cause that's definitely my picture... 05.06.03 ť i think guestbook entry #1338 is my all time favorite. thank you :) 05.06.03 ť private entry updated- read it now. 05.06.03 ť a million and a half things are going on but i have the next two days off so hopefully i can take care of it all. my computer stopped working all day yesterday so i only used my mom's for a few minutes, but that should be fixed now. And then i want to make new layouts for a lot of things, but that'll be quick, and then.. woo, a page for The Learning STore. special special. 05.06.03 ť thank you jenny for linking my songs! <3<3 05.06.03 ť two 05.04.03 ť not cool: my mother sold my car and just told me today. it's going on may 15th. uhm. 05.03.03 ť i feel like i'm kind of a mean person because sometimes these diaryland banners at the top of the members area will be so heinously ugly/annoying/terrible that i click them just to see what person actually thought it looked good enough to upload. 05.03.03 ť my mouse finally has an official name, and that is- "Pom Pom Fhqwhgads Runner". pom-pom for short. See everything at homestarrunner.com if you don't understand. 05.03.03 ť i actually used the word "Agitation" in one of my recent entries, which is funny considering i usually find it extremely lame if people find ways to incorporate their diary name into their entries like it defines them. 05.03.03 ť god, STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY DIARY IF YR ONLY HERE TO DO SEARCHES LIKE THIS. YEAH, OBVIOUSLY YOU KNOW ME REAL WELL, GET A LIFE. 05.01.03 ť download 05.01.03 ť So I guess there was an article in the newspaper that my manager told me about- but i can't find anything about it online - so i'll just share it here. That some record companies sued a bunch of file sharing places including Kazaa and Morpheus. However, they lost, because they are not actually in control of what's being shared, since it's peer-to-peer. So instead, they are going to be going after individual people that use the services and sue them. It could be up to several thousand dollars PER SONG. I would guess they'd be most likely to go after people who are sharing the most files, so I am keeping my Shared Folder completely clear and only downloading a few things at a time. It seems like a silly thing to worry about since there are millions of users, but still. 05.01.03 ť oh i know i have fabulous friends cause they send me links to AWESOME things like this! kill me. 05.01.03 ť oh my god 05.01.03 ť oh, me. 05.01.03 ť as seen in jessicka's LJ...shirley manson-i have that shirt! and I'M WEARING IT RIGHT NOW! which is actually sort of a coincidence since i hadn't worn it in months.,