11.29.03 » the internet spawns a lot of awful shit, but ratemypoo.com might be the single worst fucking thing EVER. following closely behind: ratemyboner and ratemycameltoe. also, ratemyrack. and the list goes on and on.

11.26.03 » oh look! my darling michelle put some lovely pictures of me and etienne in her journal! Isn't that sweet!

11.26.03 » NEW LAYOUT! and lots of stuff added! Majorly updated the photo section: I added lots of people/pictures to the Friends section, which also now contains a high school folder. Also added a bunch to the Miscellaneous Me section, because looking at my stats tells me that that's the folder people look in most (which is funny cause if you wanted pictures of me, you just have to look in 2001, 2002, and 2003 to find so many that you'll be sickened). Also, the world should be happy to know that I've added MORE MP3S!!! In closing, remember when I was obsessed with those funny teeth you get out of the 50 cent machines? p.s. can I get some guestbook signings? It's funny how much effort I put into this page versus my diary- but this guestbook has 22 signings, while my diary guestbook has 1,606.

11.26.03 » i really hate converge. every time i have my mp3 list set to random and a Converge song comes on, i get so fucking agitated I ditch everything in a rush to get it off my speakers.

11.24.03 » I NEED SO BAD. WHY DON'T I HAVE A CREDIT CARD. WHY DON'T THEY ACCEPT THINGS ASIDE FROM CREDIT CARDS. FUCKOS.

11.24.03 » So tonight I used a face masque (you know, "cleans deep into your pores!" etc). It's one that can be used as a wash or a mask, so as a mask you leave it on shorter than usual- only five minutes. I think it was neutragena, don't remember though. Now it's the same one I've used several times in the past. And I left it on the correct amount of time- it wasn't even dried at all when I took it off. As I started taking it off, my face hurt like HELL. You could think maybe i scrubbed rough with the face cloth, but I didn't because it hurt so much so i didn't very slowly and gently. By the time it was all off, my face was fire red and burning. There was literally a very distinctive line all the way around my face where you see the difference in color where the mask was. It was extremely hot, and when I had my mother touch it she even exclaimed that it felt like the skin was burning. So I held a cool face cloth over it.. applied some lotion and then lots of aloe gel. It helped a little (and made my face very shiny on top of the redness.. oh god, a tomato), but it's six hours later now and it is still extremely tight and warm and very very extra-sensitive to be touched at all. i mean it's sore when it's not even being touched. Now what the fuck is this?!?! Allergic reaction?? To a product i wasn't allergic to before..? I've never been allergic to anything.. This on top of the fact that I was hot as hell all day. And all night even though i went out and it's winter and I was wearing a STRAPLESS TOP (so much exposed. i did feel naked. but hotness overrode it). so in conclusion: OW. MY FACE.

11.24.03 » so then jenny's website reminded me of the White Octave, who's existence I once knew of. much confusion because it seems like such a long time ago.. i just remember having the quote on her page in my profile. and i remember mp3s, yet i have no recollection what they sound like. oh and look- ah ha! so WHO ARE THEY AND WHY DO I KNOW YET HAVE NO CLUE WHATSOEVERATALL??!?! pft.

11.22.03 » WHAT IS THIS FACE

11.22.03 » soundclick page moved here, but there's isn't much up yet.

11.21.03 » allow me to quote Tony: As a musician, however amateur, I resent the snobbish attitude that there's something inherently un-musical about rap and electronic music. Frankly, musical intelligence is musical intelligence. Your process and tools may differ, but talent comes through...and sorry to say, I still suspect that a lot of the dislike of rap is racist at heart. Plenty to hate in some sectors of it, but that's true of all musical industry products. Offical statement: Fuck that noise.

11.21.03 » hannah fury icons! <3

11.20.03 » so, you see this kid here? he wants you to know how we spent class: OBSERVE. he threatened to kill me if i didn't put it on my webpage. voila!

11.20.03 » hey bitchez n hoz, the deletion of my soundclick.com music page is only temporary so don't cry. or even notice.

11.20.03 » did you know MP3.COM IS CLOSING DECEMBER 2ND? i didn't and maybe i'm the last to know, but anyway doesn't that suck? fuck the greedy record industry.

11.19.03 » annoying.

11.19.03 » i desperately want to put up a new layout because this one is too plain for me. But I have so much info here it's going to take a while to make a new layout., So, now until xmas break. damn.

11.19.03 » more links up & MP3S!!!!!!! download.

11.18.03 » So i'm updating this again.

11.18.03 » i'm proud of massachusettts.

11.16.03 » i feel a need to repeat that ANNA OXYGEN should be your life. seriously. orgasm worthy.

11.16.03 » Through A Rapists Eyes; What to keep an eye out for...
WE CAN NEVER BE TOO AWARE
A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:
1) The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.
2) The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around to cut clothing.
3) They also look for women on their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard and can be easily overpowered.
4) The time of day men are most likely to attack and rape a woman is in the early morning, between 5:00 and 8:30 A.M.
5) The number one place women are abducted from/attacked at is grocery store parking lots. Number two is office parking lots/garages. Number three is public restrooms.
6) The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to a second location where they don't have to worry about getting caught.
7) Only 2% said they carried weapons because rape carries a 3-5 year sentence but rape with a weapon is 15-20 years.
8) If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn't worth it because it will be time-consuming.
9) These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas, or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands. Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you're not worth it.
10) Several defense mechanisms he taught us are: If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question, like what time is it, or make general small talk, I can't believe it is so cold out here, we're in for a bad winter. Now you've seen their face and could identify them in a line-up, you lose appeal as a target.
11) If someone is coming toward you, hold out your hands in front of you and yell Stop or Stay back! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they'd leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back. Again, they are looking for an EASY target.
12) If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes,) yelling I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it out will be a deterrent.
13) If someone grabs you, you can't beat them with strength but you can by out-smarting them. If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm between the elbow and armpit or in the upper inner thigh -- HARD. One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it; it hurts.
14) After the initial hit, always go for the groin. I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy's parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you'll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble, and he's out of there.
15) When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as you can plus, with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.
16) Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don't dismiss it, go with your instincts. You may feel a little silly at the time, but you'd feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.

11.16.03 » "BTW"- pam and pam's message are only for those who know and understand. mm.. you'd kind of just have to be there.

11.16.03 » in case you were interested, i have been brushing and flossing my teeth even more obsessively than i used to. as if that is possible. brushing five times a day, flossing twice? kinda excessive.

11.16.03 » look. Anna Oxygen should be your life. she is the best thing since anything that exists.

11.15.03 » PAM HAS A MESSAGE

11.14.03 » SOMETIMES I LOVE MYSELF:
speaks in jazz: http://www.badjon.com/pictures.php?pid=54&pg=1
im rad like whoa: OMIG4WD DEY R SOOOOooo)0000OOOoOo0 H4WT 'N PUNX RAWK
speaks in jazz: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11.13.03 » and then i hit upon a gold mine: see all of the Paul Lansky mp3s!

11.13.03 » get ready to be in bad-photo heaven. a rather becoming photo of etienne and i here. and here... well at least renee and lydia look normal. as for the rest of us... And then there is the epitome of it all: here is what happens when john and etienne are doing something on the sidewalk and renee is just chillin while lauren spazzes out (literally, was convulsing in a violently crazy manner) - AND THE MOMENT IS CAUGHT IN TIME! i feel bad buffy took all the pictures and is therefore not in them. All from last night.

11.13.03 » so if you want to read a really good book, i recomend you this

11.13.03 » I own this and must admit that I am a much better person for it. Plus, it's 1 million times cuter in person. seriously. You are jealous.

11.13.03 » i have an alter-ego. Her name is PAM. SHe looks like this. That's all.

11.13.03 » seriously... GIRLS IN THE SCENE WITH LONG HAIR CLUB!!!

11.12.03 » so remember that song "Right Here" by SWV? Well if you haven't heard it, you will go download the Human Nature remix, with Michael Jackson. It's so good. seriously, you guys.

11.11.03 » sometimes i love myself so much.. new and improved.

11.10.03 » HEY MICHELLE I TOLD YOU TO WATCH YO BACK HOOATCH.

11.10.03 » that bitch michelle, who thinks she's cooler than sliced bread, made me listen to this and this all night at work. my life.

11.10.03 » i love it when my mom pulls things out that i made when i was young and i have to wonder what is wrong with me.

11.10.03 » wicked good

11.10.03 » disturbing much?

11.09.03 » new splash page, new artsy thing that I happened to find, made it in 10th grade ("keep yr eyes on the horizon"), and some more links and other miscellaneous updates.. New layout at my diary, which is temporarily unlocked. Oh and my darling cut his hair.

11.09.03 » MY GIRL MICHELLE HAS A DIARY NOW, AND SHE'S ALSO MAKING UP LIES ABOUT ME (this girl lauren..) IN IT! but it's okay, i can accept ridicule from someone that thinks poor sick boys who are confined to bubbles (bubble boys) are SEXY... and she does....

11.09.03 » redone

11.08.03 » etienne updated!!

11.08.03 » go here- i added my Tori collection to the page, and also updated the CD list.

11.07.03 » although it's not completed.. black eyes fanlisting is sorta open.. i just don't have all the codes up, but you can join now if you want anyway, and i know you do want..

11.07.03 » ladybug movie and MORE POM POM!!

11.07.03 » current obsession: listening to salt n pepa's "Very Neccessary". i haven't listened to this entire album since fifth or sixth grade, and i'm loving it ! seriously.

11.06.03 » i've now written to various people about Leyla Zana- THREE TIMES. and own a "FREE LEYLA ZANA" shirt. you'd think i'm deeply obsessed.. i'm not.

11.05.03 » [ pssst: after christmas i'll have a whole bunch of stuff to add to the page cause i'm crafting lots of greatness :) ]

11.05.03 » current guilty-pleasure: *LOVING* "INVISIBLE" BY CLAY AIKEN.

11.03.03 » so i moved some things around.. added a few links and junk. just look.

11.02.03 » whoa Reno911! icons.

11.02.03 » if i could see just one show before my life ends, it would hands-down be "We're Blonde and Pretty, What Happened to You?"

11.02.03 » yeah so i am in love LOVE LOVE with Living With Eating Disorders. LOVE.